todae is suppose to be a normal sch dae but something happened after sch tat left me shocked and disappointed. as usual, I was waiting for the train and happen to see my friend. and I tot why is it every time I’m the one who said hi first but not him. so I tried to walk in front of him and see wad happens. he saw my face, look at me from head to toe and he tot tat I haven notice him yet. den he jus walk away looking relieved tat I din notice him. this may sound like a joke, but believe me, its true.

I dunno why. we are good friends for 11 years. he is my only friend tat I never lost contact wif... and the worse part is we are not in a conflict. this jus happen out of nothing. I believed this is not the first time he did it. is jus tat I only realized it todae.

desmond and alvin told me they saw u at clementi todae. they sae tat u are wif some friends. I’m wondering how will I feel if they tell me u are holding hands wif another guy one dae. I dunno. I’m really veri afraid.=(

happy birthdae joanne and veron! u all are 18 le but still look 15... haha. head down to orchard and dine at fish and co wif classmates todae. its been awhile since our last class outing... and its nice to catch up wif u guys even though its jus a few hours.

I hope tat the sun wont set so soon. I jus wan to hold u tightly before u are gone. I miss u.

book cafe’s brownie or desmond’s brownie? lol.

todae will be the last time. I cant take it anymore. I dunno wad I will do when this happens again. I always noe tat this will happen eventually but I never wan to face it... at least not now. but theres nothing I can do anymore. watching u take all the sufferings alone is too overwhelming. we never give up despite all the problems we faced and this is where it got us in the end? why? why cant we be together? I’m really tired of asking myself this question. we will never be together.

u given me a lot despite the fact tat u noe I wont be able to give u anything. and all u wan is to hav more time wif me. loving someone u cant love takes a lot of courage. I certainly don hav it. but u, u love me more than urself. tat alone is enough to justify everything u given me. I wont be able to see u anymore or hear ur voice again.

we din broke up, we got broken up. its totally different. pls take care of urself and stop skipping ur meals. I hope u can really see this. I still love u.

pls don wait here anymore. I’m sorry.