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2011-05-01T00:32:00.000+08:00

40 more daes to enlistment.

2010-01-23T18:17:00.001+08:00

yesterdae was supposed to be a simple dae accompanying royston to buy his jeans but we end up doing things tat jus randomly came out from our mouth. don get me wrong, we din do any funny things. had a feast at swensens den went to bugis to buy some clothes. as the dae is still young, we decided to watch the spy next door at iluma. spent some time at the arcade before the movie started. after tat we went to the shophouses behind bugis junction to hav dinner. it was a pity tat zhenghang wasnt there, if not we would hav had manhattan for dinner... hais.

2010-01-01T14:37:00.001+08:00

a new year. a new start. yesterdae was the last dae of 2009 and also a dae to sum up this wonderful holidae. wonderful becox everything I set out to do is pretty much done. alright, lets go into the details now.

first, went k-ing wif liangyi, royston, wanyin and desmond at an unknown eastern part of singapore. royston slept throughout the whole session... lol. after k-ing, head down to bugis to meet joanne and chaoyen. while waiting for them to arrive, we took a neoprint. chaoyen came and we went to hav steamboat. tat was one of the nastiest steamboats I ever had... everything is shit. I cant believe we ate shit for the last meal of 2009. shortly after joanne arrived, we went to watch old dogs at iluma. wif abt half an hour left, we walk to padang to catch the fireworks while royston went home. the fireworks were beautiful and the atmosphere there was great too. den we squeeze our way to clarke quay and home sweet home from there.

seriously, I don hav any new year resolutions. telling everyone u are going to do this, u are not going to do that, trying to make urself feel better ahead of the year, only to realize tat u had waste another year? wad a joke. to me, as long as u are working towards ur goal, feel free to do it in any way u wan. plain and simple. happy new year.

2009-11-30T22:18:00.000+08:00

this is wad happen after zhenghang taunt me.

2009-09-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

ok, this will be my last post. but before I shutdown this blog, let me share wif u my experience on the first week of ITP. on the first dae of work, I’m told tat my haircut is not up to standard. WTF. I hav hair tat is already short like fuck den u tell me its still not enough? why not cut my armpit hair instead. its long like fuck.

shortly after the briefing on their rules and regulations, me and xihua spent the whole morning trying out their ugly uniforms. which also means tat everydae we hav to collect our uniforms for the next dae so sometimes the size u are wearing is not available den u hav to switch to another size. mondae, I wear L xihua wear XS. tuesdae, I wear XL xihua wear S. wednesdae, I wear XXL xihua wear M. and u noe wad? nothing is available for thursdae so wear back for 2 daes. WTF.

we belong to the engineering department so basically our job is to follow the technician everydae and assist him to repair the faulty facilities in the apartments and also learn how the facilities work as we repair it ourselves. the people living in those apartments are damn rich I tell u. they hav a rich aura around them. lol. the rental per month is a five-digit number and for better rooms, the first digit don start wif one. understand? I cant tell u the exact figure if not my ITP will end early.

uncle lee is one of the technician we are attach to and he is a veri caring and good uncle. we don hav to move our hands when we are attach to him becox he will do everything by himself unless we request to. he has been here for many years so he noes clearly how the facilities work here. another technician is neelam, an indian man who speaks fluent hokkien. he is funny becox he speaks to ppl in their languages. the technician we are mostly working wif is peter. he is from china and speaks fluent chinglish. lol. he is a happy-go-lucky guy everydae. oh ya, he is a pervert too. he like hooters and claimed tat xihua is flat-chested. haha. todae xihua ask him to show her a photo of his girlfriend and he show her a photo of his girlfriend in nude. actually its not his girlfriend but its a nude photo anyway. class act.

AND dearest classmates who are keen to go back to sch on saturdaes for gym and swim, pls contact me.

2009-06-15T21:51:00.001+08:00

can anyone tell me wad the hell is tat?

2009-06-06T10:37:00.000+08:00

its sch holidaes... which means its also time for me to catch up wif my sch work. its a lot and I dunno how I’m going to do it. damn. seriously, I think this semester is totally wasted. my notes are as good as new. but its ok. don panic... yet. lol. wont be blogging due to the nba finals and upcoming mst. bye.

2009-06-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

went to xuan’s hse todae to do pmm in the morning. as we go around snapping pictures, we met a veri cute boy at the playground. his ah gong is veri friendly but I think we scare the shit out of his grandson. even our most motherly xihua freak him out. lol.

2009-05-30T15:20:00.000+08:00

do u realize most of the pictures on my blog are candid shots? well, I like candid shots becox its more natural and realistic. faking shit is not my style... and do u noe? ppl actually look better candidly. haha. ok, I admit this part is faking shit. LOL. its hard to recall wad happen for the past 2 weeks so let the pictures do the toking.

2009-05-18T00:42:00.001+08:00

come to think of it now, I’m responsible for wad happen too becox I din listen to my parents. everything they said back then are all happening now. I’m remorseful for abusing their trust in me all along. they are always the real victims of my wrongdoings. I’m really sorry for being such a disappointment.

I wan to thank my friends who stood by me during this period of time. my situation could hav been much worse without u guys. I’m glad tat everything is over. those miserable daes are long gone. I’m fine and ready to move on.

I will only get better.=)

2009-05-13T22:17:00.001+08:00

u got me fooled completely. I used to believe tat all the negative things I heard abt u were all untrue and u will change when u came out from girls home last year. seriously, I don really mind who u are and wad u did in the past if u are willing to change. but now, it seems like I’m the only one who dunno wad kind of person u really are and wad u were thinking all along.

it still haunts me everydae when I think abt the things u did to earn my trust. u are capable of doing anything to get wad u wan. u show me ur true colours in the cruelest way. I rather u lied to me than to tell me the truth. how on earth did u manage to do all those things behind my back? or should I sae I’m totally defenseless against u? I dunno and I don wan to noe.

maybe everything seems too good to be true in the first place.

2009-05-10T23:37:00.002+08:00

goodbye.

2009-05-07T23:53:00.002+08:00

I noe how to love a person yet I dunno how to trust tat person. its contradicting when I sae I love u but I don trust u. I put myself into ur shoes and think abt wad I did, I feel tat its rite tat u are so disappointed wif me. I jus take things for granted so many times. I doubt u will ever come back again. I don even noe will I get to see u for the last time. no matter wad happens tml, I’m prepared to face all the consequences alone.

one last chance.

2009-04-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

todae is suppose to be a normal sch dae but something happened after sch tat left me shocked and disappointed. as usual, I was waiting for the train and happen to see my friend. and I tot why is it every time I’m the one who said hi first but not him. so I tried to walk in front of him and see wad happens. he saw my face, look at me from head to toe and he tot tat I haven notice him yet. den he jus walk away looking relieved tat I din notice him. this may sound like a joke, but believe me, its true.

I dunno why. we are good friends for 11 years. he is my only friend tat I never lost contact wif... and the worse part is we are not in a conflict. this jus happen out of nothing. I believed this is not the first time he did it. is jus tat I only realized it todae.

2009-04-20T23:43:00.001+08:00

desmond and alvin told me they saw u at clementi todae. they sae tat u are wif some friends. I’m wondering how will I feel if they tell me u are holding hands wif another guy one dae. I dunno. I’m really veri afraid.=(

2009-04-09T02:27:00.000+08:00

happy birthdae joanne and veron! u all are 18 le but still look 15... haha. head down to orchard and dine at fish and co wif classmates todae. its been awhile since our last class outing... and its nice to catch up wif u guys even though its jus a few hours.

2009-04-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

I hope tat the sun wont set so soon. I jus wan to hold u tightly before u are gone. I miss u.

2009-04-06T23:48:00.000+08:00

book cafe’s brownie or desmond’s brownie? lol.

2009-04-01T09:30:00.001+08:00

todae will be the last time. I cant take it anymore. I dunno wad I will do when this happens again. I always noe tat this will happen eventually but I never wan to face it... at least not now. but theres nothing I can do anymore. watching u take all the sufferings alone is too overwhelming. we never give up despite all the problems we faced and this is where it got us in the end? why? why cant we be together? I’m really tired of asking myself this question. we will never be together.

u given me a lot despite the fact tat u noe I wont be able to give u anything. and all u wan is to hav more time wif me. loving someone u cant love takes a lot of courage. I certainly don hav it. but u, u love me more than urself. tat alone is enough to justify everything u given me. I wont be able to see u anymore or hear ur voice again.

we din broke up, we got broken up. its totally different. pls take care of urself and stop skipping ur meals. I hope u can really see this. I still love u.

pls don wait here anymore. I’m sorry.

2009-03-26T05:15:00.003+08:00

ivy and oscar... I’m jealous.=(

2009-03-20T05:44:00.005+08:00

results are out already... I’m not upset. efforts are proportional to results. I’m jus glad tat I don hav to forward any modules.=)

2009-03-09T23:46:00.005+08:00

after 2 weeks den I realized tat nothing is up for me. I’m jus going to tell myself tat they had forgotten abt it rather than thinking tat they don intend to do anything. pathetic. it really reflects how lowly I am in their eyes... they make me feel like I was born on a leap year. now, I can only sae tat I’m glad enough to be part of their happy moments... but not anymore.

2009-03-06T20:14:00.003+08:00

I used to think tat having one sibling is not enough... my sis changed my mind. happy birthdae, unglam sis!

2009-02-26T23:35:00.003+08:00

watch marley and me wif ivy todae. guess wad? I bought the tickets wif the wrong timing... and I only realize tat 2 hours after the movie for tat timing ended. how dumb. luckily we still manage to catch it at nite... haha.

I noe its hard for us to go out todae, but u make it all worthwhile. I love u.

19.

2009-02-24T00:50:00.007+08:00

2009-02-23T20:20:00.004+08:00

I’m 19 todae. it feels the same when u look older than ur actual age.=( sad tat my birthdae falls on exam period this year but it wont make a difference anyway. thank you liangyi, royston and xuan for willing to spend some time wif me todae, I really appreciate it.=) and also those who texted me, thanks.=)

many things happened recently but I jus wan to finish my exams now and spent some quality time alone... its been awhile since I hav time for myself.

2009-02-14T21:11:00.005+08:00

sorry for not being able to spend time wif u todae... but I noe we hav some memorable moments this week. haha. it seems tat time passes so fast when we get together.=(

although we grew up together, I only get to noe u better until this past few weeks. its really surprising how things turn out to be. I’m still thinking abt tat dae we first met at my xiao gu’s hse and wondering when am I going to see u again. I never had this feeling for a long time. I noe it will be very difficult for us to be together wif all the family issues surrounding us but I believe we can make it. I would only let go when I’m at my wits end. I jus wan to spend more time wif u now while I still can.

its impossible for me to see u everydae, so they will be helping me to keep u warm everynite. happy valentines. I LOVE U, IVY.=)

2009-02-08T23:49:00.004+08:00

I feel tat he was a caring and good-looking boyfriend... but somehow he still got ditch in the end. it always amaze me tat how a person can change its feelings so fast tat one moment they sae they cant live without u and the next moment they sae jus leave me alone. I’m not this kind of person and I HATE this kind of person.

I’m jus wondering when is it going to be my turn.

I don trust ppl easily... or should I sae I don trust anyone at all. I jus feel insecure all the time. the secure feeling is broken... long ago.

2009-02-07T23:34:00.004+08:00

this wont be the last photo we took together. I promise.

2009-02-07T11:56:00.005+08:00

I’m really happy when I’m wif u. jus becox we are cousins and we cant be together??? FUCK. I don care.

2009-02-01T19:23:00.002+08:00

I noe wad is everyone thinking and toking abt behind my back. I dunno why they do tat. is it becox of who I am? whether it is right or wrong, its my decision. pls respect me. I noe where I stand and I don need u to tell me all tat fucking shit.

2009-01-31T11:57:00.003+08:00

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2009-01-29T00:00:00.005+08:00

I always wanted to ask u... but when I look into the mirror, I changed my mind abt it. sometimes its better to pretend tat u dunno anything... taking the initiative doesnt mean anything. worse still if u noe the answer urself.

no matter wad happens, its always important to noe where u stand. be grateful, not hopeful.

2009-01-27T03:26:00.011+08:00

happy chinese new year everyone!!! cny is great and I hope everyone feels the same too.=) cant remember much so let the pictures do the toking.

2009-01-25T01:08:00.001+08:00

last minute shopping at far east wif my classmates jus now... bought nothing.

2009-01-14T23:50:00.008+08:00

this week will be a none-of-my-business week. for those who wan to emo, pls go and die... those who wan to fuck, pls go and fuck urself. I’m jus going to sit back and relax.=)

my sis told me tat I scream in my sleep last nite... she thinks tat I’m having a nightmare but I’m not. its serious becox she saes it sounds terrifying. maybe I shall deliberately let out a loud scream to freak her out tonite... hahahaha.

saw u twice todae... its sad tat u don feel like u wan to sae hi. I wanted to... but ur expression tells me to stay away for good.=(

2009-01-12T23:51:00.002+08:00

my blog is not dead yet. jus don feel like blogging recently... tired like shit this few daes.

suppose to run todae but miss xihua wear heels to sch... every time scam me one leh. desmond, royston and alvin are all working now liao which means I’m going to be free everydae. I’m a person wif nothing but time... time seems valuable to a lot of ppl but unfortunately, time is not for sale. I cant let this happen anymore... I’m going to find something to invest my time. maybe I can write a book on 100 ways to waste... I mean... INVEST ur time like me.

memories will be back home tml.=)

2009-01-01T22:34:00.010+08:00

I wan to thank everyone who hav play a part in my life this year... it has been a peaceful year for me. catch yes man yesterdae before heading down to esplanade to countdown.

Christmas @ Mandai Crematorium

2008-12-25T23:06:00.006+08:00

2008-12-25T10:18:00.003+08:00

its been quite awhile since we hav a good tok like todae... and its really nice to noe tat someone do care if u are there or not. seriously, I tot tat u will be gone like everyone else did but I din noe u felt the same too... sorry. we hav not seen each other more than 3 times this year, yet we still can tok our hearts out. I think this is wad makes u special from others, rite?

when I first came into ur class, I noe little abt u. jus a girl sitting next to my table who likes to stare at the sky. and sometimes I wonder if u were staring at something tat others couldnt see... haha. and its really memorable how we started toking. so random.

feel free to tok to me whenever u are troubled. and I hope I will do the same too.=) I’m willing to be ur soulmate till the dae u sae no.

and I still love the rain as much as u do.

2008-12-24T04:13:00.003+08:00

its 4 something already and I’m still awake yet... lost contact wif friends for sometime already. really sorry cox I din even hav time to reply. and now I need someone to tok to and everyone is asleep.=( but to be honest, I find it easier to ask for help than to ask for a listening ear. dunno why... its really veri hard for me to jus ask. most of the time I end up becoming the listening ear. lol.

every time when I put my heart into something to do well, I really mean it. to me its not acceptable to lose when u wan to win. theres no such thing as try to win. u will only win when u wan to. a loser is not someone who FAIL to TRY. a loser is someone who TRY and FAIL.

2008-12-06T02:45:00.001+08:00

hav steamboat after c prog test wif royston, liangyi, alvin (finally free on fridae), xuan, chaoyen and junyi... some went home after tat and liangyi suggest go to changi airport since its so early yet. walk walk snap snap around den went home... chaoyen almost miss the last train. haha...

2008-12-04T21:22:00.004+08:00

skip electrical lecture for crabs at my xiao gu’s hse todae... nice nice.=) although its raining heavily todae, somehow I feel depressed. dunno why. maybe less toking can avoid conflicts. hais... tml got c prog test and I haven start revising yet... still got stupid dialogue session to entertain tml... last dae of the semester should be a happy dae but I don feel happy at all.=(

2008-12-03T17:50:00.009+08:00

intend to go home straight after sch but since I got nothing to do, I decide to follow wanyin and company to the warehouse job interview at tai sing... had some fun along the way of cox... from jumping across tables to screaming in mrt, it seems like theres nothing xihua couldnt do. luckily she subsided as soon as we reach eunos... and sorry chao chao for poking ur “ba gua”. LOL. spent some time looking for the building and we finally got there... den they told us to go back and wait for their call after the interview. I’m jus hopeful tat they will hire all of us... haha.

2008-12-02T22:33:00.001+08:00

royston did this on train everydae.

2008-11-28T23:19:00.011+08:00

had c prog mock test in the morning which was quite difficult I guess... but its ok since everyone feels the same too... haha. after tat went for crs and I’m quite satisfied wif my test score, at least its higher than wad I expect it to be.

den went to bugis to catch city of ember wif royston and liangyi. the front part of the movie was pretty boring and hard to understand but overall its still a nice movie... after tat we went window shopping around bugis and royston went to meet his friends at ps. so me and liangyi decided to go to punggol end to hav dinner... ya, PUNGGOL END!!! a place filled wif ghosts and fishing peeps. apon reaching there, we realized tat there were a lot of dogs too. abt 5, 6 of them running around. nice place to emo since its so dark. lol.

2008-11-26T22:42:00.002+08:00

almost fell out of the window while trying to take this picture.

cant imagine if tat happens. I realize tat everyone hav to die one dae. obviously its better to die doing wad u love to do than to die of any other unnatural causes. isnt it?

2008-11-24T23:41:00.013+08:00

todae is quite a boring dae in sch, well... I don understand anything from the maths lecture since 2 weeks ago? and its getting more difficult to understand every week. FUCK. and yes I’m a person who use the word FUCK sometimes.

to anyone who wants to clarify anything wif me this week, sorry but I don think its the time yet. not now. not becox I’m still pissed but I think I hav important things to do this week. I don wan to stuff my brain wif other things while trying to work out something at the same time. pls bear wif me for another week. no offence for wad I did todae. PLS.

after sch went to hougang mall wif my best friends (kc, km, jeremy, hj and liwen) to cafe cartel for dinner to celebrate jeremy’s birthdae. saw someone tat I din met for a long time... pretty unexpected. but km, jeremy and hj were looking more excited than I do. haha...

2008-11-23T23:40:00.007+08:00

my blog is finally born after so many months!!! I always wanted to hav a blog but I’m afraid tat I will hav no time for it... I hope I can keep this blog from rotting of cox... will update soon. bye.

Class Chalet

2008-09-10T02:26:00.002+08:00